[.Chapter X.]

Originally Published On: Dec 24, 2009

I Miss You
♥

As soon as he was done with FILA photoshoot, Ji Yong was in a deep hurry to go back to Bom, he got a call from Chae Rin saying how sick Bom was and how she was found sleeping outside the apartment. Throughout his photoshoot all he was thinking about was Bom, he was scared, she’s never been in such a condition before. Everyone in the photoshoot knew that Ji Yong was not mentally present in the job he was doing, he was lacking and everyone saw it. Though they didn’t know that he was worried sick for his girlfriend.

As soon as he was inside the YG building he sprinted upstairs not bothering to use the elevator. He couldn’t take waiting; he was impatiently wanting to see Bom. He ran as fast as he could in the stairs, so fast that he could probably have beaten a World Record. He finally made it through the floor level of Bom’s apartment as he was breathing heavily but he didn’t care, he continued to run as he was standing in front of the door banging it ever so loudly. A second later Dara’s face was seen on the other side of the door.

“You’re going to break the door!” Dara looked at him annoyed.

Ji Yong didn’t even look at her or reply, he quickly made his way in towards Bommie’s room not even greeting any of the other girls. His heart was pounding so loudly as he slowed down his steps when he was inside her room making sure that he wasn’t going to wake her up.

Bom was tucked in her bed, she was sleeping, he calmed down to see that she was okay, she was breathing fine. He walked towards her and brought down his hand to touch her cheek softly as he started caressing it.

“Bom, you scared the hell out of me today,” he whispered quietly to the sleeping Bom. “Don’t ever do that again.”

He leaned down to kiss Bom lightly on the forehead, and looked at her lovingly. She was beautiful in her sleep, she could still manage to make him go crazy even though she was not awake. But there was something about how she looked like right now, that told him that she wasn’t fully okay. The times he had seen her sleeping, she looked like she was sleeping happily. Right now though, her mouth seemed to be tight, her face wasn’t relaxed, was she having a nightmare?

He pulled a chair next to her bed, and took her right hand into his.

“Bom,” he whispered her name. He felt ashamed of himself for not even being able to be here when she couldn’t even take care of herself.

As Ji Yong brushed his lips softly against Bom’s warm hands, he looked at her face to see that she was slowly opening her eyes. Her lips slowly formed a smile as she looked up at him lovingly. He smiled back down at her as he squeezed her hand tighter.

“Park Bom,” he used her full name to show that he wasn’t fully happy as his eyebrows formed together to show his disapproving look. “You had me so worried.”

“I’m sorry,” she whispered to him feeling even worse that Ji Yong was affected real greatly by this. “I really didn’t mean to get you worried.”

“Aish, it’s okay,” he smiled at her teasingly, but then gave her a questioning look. “What happened anyway?”

She didn’t respond right away, but managed to force words out through her mouth.

“I don’t know… I was just feeling really sick,” she told him quietly as she looked down not meeting his worried gaze at her.

“Are you still sick?” he asked as he placed the back of his hand on top of her forehead. “You don’t seem to have a fever though..?”

“No, I don’t think it’s cause of that,” she quickly took his hand away, feeling guilty. “I think I might just be really stressed or something, I have a really big headache.”

“Aigoo, my poor baby,” he said lovingly to her as he placed a kiss on her lips and he picked up her blanket that had Bom surprised, as he placed himself on the bed next to her inside the blankets.

“Omo!” Bom exclaimed. “What are you doing?”

“I’m trying to go to sleep, after what you made me go through today, I think it’s only fair that you let me rest,” he chuckled while wrapping his arms around her tightly and placing his head on the crook of her neck.

“You should probably do that in your own bed,” she smiled at him.

“Nope,” he quickly replied. “I want to sleep next to my girlfriend so I can make sure that nothing will happen to her.”

“I’m sure your girlfriend will be happy to hear that, but I think she can take care of herself,” she teased.

“Nope. With what happened today, I don’t think so,” he replied seriously. “And plus, she needs to watch over me while I’m sleeping too.”

Bom just laughed at his childishness as she kissed him softly.

“Omona!” the couple turned towards the door to find a surprised Minjy trying to cover her eyes. “Unnie! What is this?!”

“Minjy-ah, please leave and close the door,” Ji Yong declared to the maknae with a smile on his face.

“Aigoo!” Minjy just shrieked as she listened to him and giving her Unnie a disapproving look before closing the door.

“You know after this she is going to hate you,” Bom laughed at him.

“I don’t care, I want my sleep and my girlfriend next to me,” repositioning himself more comfortably as they were both now so close to each other that every inch of their body were touching the other.

“Just ‘cause you are a somewhat decent boyfriend, I’ll let you have your wish,” she smiled teasingly at him as they both stared at each other for a second lovingly before Ji Yong closed his eyes to a peaceful sleep with his girlfriend in his arms.

“I love you,” she whispered to him quietly as he soon fell into a deep and comfortable sleep. She too, was able to fall asleep once again, with the love of her life next to her and his arms around her, she felt like she was safe from everything in the world and all her fear was taken from her.

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“Dear Ji Yong,

It’s been a year. I was looking at the pictures that we took for the surprise birthday you threw for me, and how I wish I could go back to that time you looked me in the eyes and told me you loved me. Ji Yong-ah, do you still feel the same?

Do you still think about me? Do you still love me? A big part of me hopes that you still do. I hope that you see me in your dreams at night, I hope that every time someone says my name you immediately look up, I hope that you miss holding me in your arms, miss the way I kiss you, and miss the way your name comes out through my lips.

But a part of me wishes that all of these aren’t true. I wish that you have forgotten about me and that you have someone else for you who loves you like I did. Even though it pains me to think that you have someone else who you love, I hope that you do.

I can’t keep the promises we kept, I’m not worthy of your love, Ji Yong. I’m a horrible person, I hope that by the time you are reading this that you have forgotten about me. It will make me happy one day, to know that you have completely forgotten about me. I was nothing but a waste of your time and your love.

I love you, Ji Yong

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“Good morning my butterfly,

Text me back when you’re awake,
I’ll be waiting outside. “
Bom read the text message she got a minute ago from Ji Yong, she smiled as she read ‘my butterfly’. She loved when he called her sweet names like that, actually even if he just uses her name she still loved how it comes out through his mouth. It sounded so beautiful in her ears.

“Good morning, my love.

I’m awake, I’ll see you in a bit.
Just woke up. <3 “
Bom texted him back as got up from her bed slowly trying not to make too much noise and movement so the girls wouldn’t wake up. It was 5:55 AM and it was still dark outside, the sun not rising yet. Bom quietly made her way to her closet and got some sweats and a pair of sneakers and quickly changed. Then she tip-toed her way to the kitchen to get a power bar, and felt her phone vibrate.

“I’m outside ^_^”

She closed back her phone as she made her way to the door and as gentle and quietly as she could, she unlocked and opened the door, revealing Ji Yong’s shoulder with him leaning on the side of the doorway. He turned around and smiled to see her bright morning face.

“Are you ready?” he asked with a smirk on his face, “I know how much you just love doing this.” He teased her and laughed a little at her adorable face.

“Yeah, I love waking up every 5:55 in the morning and sweating myself off,” she replied sarcastically as she kissed him on the lips for a good-morning kiss.

“Of course, but we both know it’s ‘cause of me that you love to wake up in the morning and seeing me first thing,” he kissed her back as he placed his hands on her lower back.

“I think you’re wrong, I’m pretty sure it’s something else,” she laughed as she took his hand and held it with her own as they both walked to exit the apartment building. They were very happy, happier than they have ever been. They only wondered why they haven’t met each other sooner, but as they looked into each other’s eyes they knew it was okay. What they had was good enough no matter when they met or how they met. They knew they belonged to each other and no one else.

As they made it outside they separated from each other’s hold and started running side by side. They looked at each other and smiled thanking how life has been good to them.

“Let’s do two miles today, Mr. Park says you need to work harder for the upcoming solo event you will have in some months from now,” Ji Yong made out while trying to concentrate on his breathing while running.

“Aigoo! So much pressure, Ji Yong-ah!” Bommie cried adorably.

“Fighting! Fighting! Yah! Yah!” Ji Yong screamed on the top of his lungs and then looking at Bom affectionately as the both of them kept running together.

“Fighting! Fighting! Yah! Yah!” Bom copied him, it was their cheer for each other now. She smiled at the thought of being such a lucky person to have him by her side. She doesn’t ever know what she did to deserve him. She was just thankful that God had given her to him.

They ran, ran together side by side, knowing that the two of them will always be there for each other no matter what happens. If they fall on the ground the other will be there to pick the other up, if the other was to fall behind the other will be there to wait, if the other felt like they couldn’t go on the other will be there to support. It was crazy how the two of them had such a beautiful relationship.

People from their company saw the love these two had for each other. They were both young, only at the age of 23, but yet the loved each other as if they’ve known what true love was all along. Every time the two were together, the whole world saw them as the center of attention. The whole world could not keep their eyes away from the beautiful love they had for each other. They cared for each other so deeply that there was no doubt in their minds that Ji Yong or Bom would die for the other if they had to.

Even when the two were apart, people around them noticed how incomplete the other felt. How one would always be constantly on the phone texting or calling the other. How Ji Yong always mentioned and never failed to mention Bom to other people while she was gone. How Bom always mentioned the great things he had done for her and informed other people how a great person he was. They just simply could not keep their minds off each other. Yes, these two were deeply and madly in love.

They ran for miles and miles, forgetting that the goal was two, it’s been months now since they’ve started this routine. Mr. Park, 2NE1’s physical trainer, took advantage of Ji Yong and Bom’s relationship. He knew that if he couldn’t make Bom work harder, then he knew that the answer to his prayers was Ji Yong. He had asked Ji Yong to find a way to get her in shape, and of course he was more than gladly to accept his proposal. This was Ji Yong’s idea too. Wake up every 5:55 in the morning and take her out jogging. It was definitely hard starting out the work-out. With their busy schedule it would mean less sleeping time and more work. They didn’t mind it though, if it had meant seeing each other more constantly, then why not?

It was one of the rare times that the two could just be together alone, being a celebrity was hard, and having a relationship was even harder. Though the two never complained, they only took advantage of what was given to them and made the best out of it.

Until about an hour and a half later the couple were sweating hot and breathing hard as they slowed down to make a stop at a nearby bench by the park.

“Ji Yong-ah, I think that run should be good enough for the next two months,” Bom panted as she looked at her boyfriend.

“What? That was nothing!” Ji Yong teased her as he closed the gap between them, and placed his hands on her sweating face and brushed his lips on top of hers.

“Whatever,” Bom smiled at him; he never fails to tease her at every moment he could grab. “Go get me some water, I’m dying of thirst!”

“Yes, your highness,” Ji Yong bowed 90 degrees as if he was bowing down to his queen, he then kissed her again never wanting to lose the opportunity to do so. “I’ll be back with your water my queen.”

Bom laughed at his silliness as he turned the corner to look for a vending machine. He couldn’t stop smiling; one of his favorite time of the day was every morning when he saw his beautiful Bom. Why couldn’t life just let them be together and see each other 24/7? He’s not exactly sure, but he’ll wait until that time comes, if there’s anything in his life that he’s learnt, was that just be patient and good will come to you. After all, he lived without Bom for about 20 years of his life, and finally after all that unknown waiting, he’s got her.

Bom sat on the bench as she waited for him, she leaned back and placed her head up to look at the morning sky. It was beautiful, the bright yellow color of the sky as the shine was shining on the world, and she couldn’t help but be amazed. The world was such a beautiful place, she didn’t learn how great and wonderful the world really is until she met Ji Yong.

He taught her so many things in life. He’s shown her the meaning of life, to never give up even if it feels like the world is turning their backs on you, to never be afraid even if you feel so helpless with the world around you, to keep hoping even if it feels like you can’t go on and to keep living even if you feel like you were dying. She’s never known the true meaning of life until she found him, but most of all she’s never known what love really was until she’d met him.

She had been so afraid to love, afraid to get hurt. She knew that was why when she first met Ji Yong, she had kept such a distance from him, and it was because she was afraid that she would get too close to him. The way he had looked at her when they first met, she was scared, scared that he would figure her out. See her more than anyone could. The way he seemed to see through her soul, she was afraid that someone would know her more than she knew herself. She was scared that he might come to love her.

From the experiences she had in life, she didn’t think love existed between man and a woman. She’s seen through her eyes the broken family she had because of the divorce of her parents that love could easily disappear. She would wonder at night and ask herself if her parents really did love each other, didn’t people say that love last forever? How can people just claim to love another person and marry them, have kids and a family, when in the end you separate claiming that you don’t love them anymore. Was love just a feeling like all the others that doesn’t last except for a moment?

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“Dear Ji Yong,

‘The best and most beautiful thing in the world cannot be seen or even be touched. They must be felt with the heart.’

Lately I’ve been absorbed by love poems and quotes, I’ve been reading them constantly trying to see what other people thought of love. One day I want to express what I believe is love, I want to show the world what I feel about love, what you taught me about love.

You’ve shown me the beautiful side of the world, Ji Yong-ah. You’ve taught me that true love does exist. All this time I’ve been seeing the world through closed eyes, I’ve been seeing the dark. It was such a scary place to see, my love. You finally came along and opened my eyes, and I was more than happy to see that bright and beautiful place that the Lord had given us. Everyone just needs that special someone to guide them and show them that strange and mysterious feeling of love.

I was lucky enough to find you. Or was it you who found me? Maybe it was both, we were brought upon by some force that pulled both of us together. If we were to meet again, it would be because of that force. I’ve never believed in soul mates, but maybe it does exist. There are so many times when I felt like I could hear you calling to me, I felt like I was feeling all the feelings you were feeling, I felt like I were seeing things through your eyes.

Could it be that we are ‘two souls with but a single thought, and two hearts that beat as one?’

I love you, Ji Yong”

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It was his birthday dinner, he was twenty three years old, and the same age as Bom was. He always had to wait a few months until he could finally counterattack her when she teased him that she was older and knew better than him. It was always hard for him those few months when she teased him, he laughed at the thought that for awhile until her next birthday, he would be the one to do all the teasing.

Everything was perfect; of course everyone was there to be with him on his special birthday. The YG family, his friends, Big Bang, 2NE1, his mother, sister and of course his Bom and Gaho were there. He looked at her from the other side of the room where she was talking and laughing with his mom and Jiae as she carried GaHo in her arms. She was probably telling them something silly he did, or maybe vice-versa, he’ll just have to figure it out later. He turned back his attention on his friend who came and had just given him a birthday present and was now telling him about the new job he’s gotten. Ji Yong just smiled and nodded at his friend, hoping that he wasn’t rude, as he went towards his girlfriend and family.

“How’s my most three favorite women in the world doing?” he chimed in as he seated himself on the table next to Bom and placed a kiss on top of her head and then on GaHo’s.

“I was just telling Bom how you’re getting older,” Ji Yong’s mom smiled at him. “And pretty soon you might want to start looking for the girl you want to settle down with.”

“Hmm… I don’t think I’m getting any luck, it seems like I can’t find the right woman,” he laughed as he looked at Bom’s mean expression through the corners of her eyes. “Maybe if I try harder.”

“I think someone will be alone on the ride back home,” Bom replied to him still giving him an angry look.

“Bommie Unnie, I think I shall find you a new boyfriend then, huh?” Jiae smiled at Bom, knowing her brother’s mean joke. “I have many older guy friends whose a big fan of you, and think you’re very pretty and sexy!”

“Real-“ Bom was cut off.

“One touch or stare Bom gets from one of your friends, they won’t be able to see sunlight or have any hands to touch with,” Ji Yong said threateningly.

“Aigoo, I thought you said you can’t seem to find the right woman?” Bom smiled at his jealous action.

“That’s right, because the person for me, is still a girl,” he replied as tried to save himself while giving her a light kiss on the lips, “at least she acts like it.”

Bom pouted at him as she took GaHo from him and said, “Your daddy is being mean to me, is it okay if I hurt him tonight?” GaHo just looked at her blankly and then licked her.

“Aigoo! Seems like you guys are already one big happy family,” Ji Yong’s mother commented at how Ji Yong, Bom and GaHo seemed to act like a family.

For the rest of the night it was all fun and happiness, everyone ate so much, adults drank until they were tipsy and everyone just enjoying themselves.

“Unnie, are you going to go with us to the store to buy some things for the house?” Chae Rin asked Bom as the dinner ended and everyone was leaving.

“No, I still have to give Ji Yong his present,” she told Chae Rin. “We’ll be at the apartment, just tell me when you guys come back.”

“Oh! What did you get him?” Chae Rin asked her excitedly. “I thought it was that hat he was wearing today.”

“Yeah that too, but I have a surprise for him,” Bom said quietly and whispered to her.

“I see,” Chae Rin smiled at her best friend. She was finally starting to accept the love Bom and Ji Yong had for each other; it was hard not to be happy for them. The way the two seemed to be having the best life because they had each other made Chae Rin know that she was doing the right thing to let go.

“Are you ready, love?” Bom came up beside him and asked.

“Yeah,” he gave her a smile before looking back at his friends and saying goodbye to them.

“Yah, Ji Yong-ah, you better come home before morning!” Seung Hyun teased him as Bom and Ji Yong made their way to the car.

“If you don’t, we’ll take that as a homerun!” Seung Ri shouted as the other guys made a loud ‘Ohh!” noise.

“Shut up before I hurt you!” Ji Yong shouted back as he took Bom’s hands in his and turned to her, “don’t mind them.”

“So what’s the big surprise?” he asked her eagerly.

“You’ll see,” Bom just smiled.

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“Dear Ji Yong,

I miss you.

I love you, Ji Yong”

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Author's Note: Quotes I used: the first one was by Hellen Keller, and the second one by John Keates!