[.Chapter IV.]

Originally Published On: Nov 27, 2009

I'll Never Let You Go
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After the heart-felt story that Ji Yong gave Bom, they became closer, as friends and people. They understood each other, they were able to know each other's feelings without having to tell the other of what it is that they are feeling. After that they seemed to have this special bond, a bond that the only two of them knew about. But to everyone else it was unknown, only their friendship could be seen but nothing more. It was an unofficial secret that both of them decided to have. Two years after they had met each other Ji Yong became a member along with Seung Hyun, Tae Yang, Dae Sung and Seung Ri of Big Bang. Both Bom and Ji Yong were at the age of twenty years old then. It was not until another two years later that Bom and the other girls formed 2NE1.

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"Big Bang! Ahhh!" There were loads and loads of VIP's in the crowd as the guys were about to go on-stage and perform "Lies." It's been some months since they debuted, and oh boy, weren't they already stealing the hearts of most teenage girls.


Park Bom was still a YG trainee and she was at first going to debut as a solo singer but then it was changed. In a couple of years or maybe sooner she would be debuting as a member of a girl group. But for now, all the fame and eyes were on Big Bang. Bom's big, dark brown eyes though, were set on one particular guy.


"Ji Yong-ah! Hwaiting! Yah! Yah! Yah!" She screamed on the top of her lungs from the side of the back-stage area as Ji Yong walked with the other members to the stage. He looked at her, and gave her a sweet smile. She was surprised he had heard her after all even with all the louder screaming fan girls in front of the stage.


"Hwaiting," he quickly turned his head towards her and mouthed to her quietly, and gave her a quick wink, that made her heart thumping. She quickly looked down to make sure no one of the staff or YG family saw that Ji Yong had given her a wink.


She doesn't know of what Ji Yong feels for her, but what she feels for him cannot be known to anyone else but herself. It was a little secret that she would keep only to her own little heart for the rest of her life. If she was to reveal it, nothing would be right, nothing would work out and most of all, she would just get hurt.


"Bommie Unnie. what are you doing? Don't just stand there, watch the Oppas do good!" Chae Rin was suddenly next to her. Bom was thankful that she was not there in the beginning to see the little incident had happened. "Ji Yong Oppa! Hwaiting!" Chae Rin shouted to her biggest fan.


Chae Rin and Ji Yong have known each other for a long time. Ever since Chae Rin had become a YG trainee five years ago, when she was thirteen, Ji Yong had been more than eager to become her friend and take the role as a bigger brother in her life. Unknown to anyone else, but Bom, of his childhood years, Ji Yong has a younger sister. As he first saw Chae Rin, he was instantly reminded of his younger sister back home that he couldn't directly take care of. So he decided to pay back his duties through Chae Rin and be a good Oppa to her.


It was a great performance that the boys gave, everyone loved it and they gave it their all as always. As they finished their performance Bom, Chae Rin, along with the newest YG trainee, Dara and Minjy were waiting for them in the waiting room to congratulate the guys. The girls were excited to see their sunbaes doing so well and only in the beginning of their musical career.


Minjy gave all the boys a high-five as she told Dae Sung, "I knew my big brother would do so well!" As she raised herself up to give him a pat on the back. The two pair were always told how much they both resembled each other, that both have decided to embrace that and make it their own little inside-joke always calling each other "little sister" and "big brother."


Dae Sung ruffled her hair and gave her a smile with his smiling eyes, "As always Minjy- yah!"


Dara on the other hand was the newest of the all the YG trainees and was a little bit more shy than others. She didn't know who to really approach and give a personal congratulatory. But somehow she just found Top next to her, and so she decided to take a shot and talk to him. Although in the past it had never been so successful, so maybe she shouldn't. But in the end decided to congratulate him anyway.


"Uhm... You did good today," She tilted her head up to get a good look at his face. She was hoping this would not turn out to be one of their awkward moments as they always never failed to have. The two had been known to be the awkward pair of the YG family.


"Thanks... I hope I can do better next time," as Top gave her a smile, but then turned into a disappointed look as if he probably shouldn't have said what he said. Dara just nodded at him and smiled a little, as she didn't know what to say after him, since she said that he did good today, but he just replied and said he hope he can do better. What was she supposed to reply to that?


While Dara and Minjy were both having their own little conversation, Chae Rin got along with all the guys that she didn't have a problem with expressing her happiness for them. She was now both conversing with Seung Ri and Tae Yang. Tae Yang was very polite and thanking her for every compliment she had given him. While Seung Ri was adding compliments about himself after Chae Rin complimented him already! She didn't bother fighting with him today though, they were always like cat and mouse always at each other's throat every minute they see each other. But today though, she would let him have his way since today was a big day for them. She looked around hoping to find Ji Yong Oppa, but there was not one trace of him in the room. Little did she know that Bom was also nowhere to be seen.


Just about three floors above from where the rest of the YG family were, two people were sharing a moment together on the fall night air on the rooftop. The big moon was shinning, the stars sparkling, the dark blue sky and the bright lights of Seoul night added a romantic feel to the atmosphere that when a stranger saw them across from another building, they might have mistaken them for a two love pair sharing a romantic night on the rooftop.


They were both sitting very closely next to each other on the floor with their hands wrapped around their knees, as they both are looking up at the night sky.


"I've always just liked looking up and stare at the stars and the moon at night," Bom said aloud without taking her eyes off from the night sky above. "When I was little I dreamed of flying to the moon and the stars and just live in the moon where I will be far away from the problems of the world."


Ji Yong looked at her with gentle eyes. He smiled at how full of dreams and hopes Bom was. He had never met a girl with so much optimism as Bom did, even if she knows something is bad, she will just keep hoping and being positive that it's okay and that it will be better next time.


"When I lived in the States with my family, me and my older sister would just sit outside the balcony at night and just talk," Bom whispered to Ji Yong. She turned her head to the right to look at him, and she found him already looking at her with a gentle smile on his face. She quickly looked down to hide her embarrassed face.


"Park Bom," as her name rolled out of his tongue, her heart skipped a bit and she looked up to see his eyes. "Have I ever told you how cute you are?"


She blushed even more. She didn't have the courage yet to look up.


"Omo, is that a blushed-face I see on Park Bommie?" Ji Yong said teasingly as he put his face closer to hers, acting like he couldn't believe it.


"No," Bommie quickly said.


"I don't think so, I think I'm right," he laughed, as she suddenly felt him pinching her cheeks slowly.


"Hmph!" She looked at him with a pouting face as he was still pinching her cheeks like a grandma would do to her grandchildren.


He laughed even harder and now he used both his hands to pinch both her cheeks!


"Ehhh...?!" Bom was now fighting back and took hold of Ji Yong's two cheeks with both her hands.


They were like that for some minutes, both not wanting to let go and just laughing. And both did not want to let go of the other's cheeks. They were both laughing hard though, they felt like two little kids again and just sharing a nice and fun time with one of your best friend.


"Bommie Unn-" a voice by the door said but quickly stopped.


The two pair froze as they looked back at the door to find Chae Rin looking at them with a confused look. Bom quickly let go of her hold of Ji Yong, as after some seconds later Ji Yong also followed.


"Ah, Chae Rin-ah!" Bommie replied and quickly stood up, acting as if she was caught doing something she wasn't suposed to be doing. Ji Yong on the other hand was calm, and not affected at all by the disrupt that occurred.


"I couldn't find you, and one of the staff said they saw you come up here..." Chae Rin quietly said. She turned her eyes from Bom and looked at Ji Yong, only to find him looking at Bom who seemed a little uncomfortable. "Ji Yong Oppa, I couldn't find you either, but someone said that you left already, so I didn't look for you..."


"Oh, I was about to, until I remembered I had to give back something to Bom," Chae Rin was instantly satisfied with the answer, and quickly walked over to them, and went to the middle so she could take each of their hand, as she pulled them through the door. "Let's go with the rest of the guys and partaayyy!"


Chae Rin's confused face in the beginning and was changed to a happy face once again. Bom and Ji Yong were quiet, both felt like their closeness must now be hidden from the rest of the world.

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"Now that you're popular, you are going to forget about me now," Bom seated herself on the sofa in the music room, as Ji Yong was across from her playing a melody of one of the Big Bang's song on on the piano.


Bom hoped that he didn't hear her say that last sentence, but unfortunately to her, Ji Yong stopped playing the piano and looked at her straight in the eyes.


"Why would I do that?" His face was serious, Bom almost regretted saying what she said. "Park Bom, what makes you think I'll forget about you?"


She stayed quiet not wanting to get him any angrier. They were alone together in the practice room at 5:00 in the morning. It was their chance to get away from the world and left only together. Now that Ji Yong was so popular, it was getting harder and harder for them to be able to talk and hang out like they used to. Everywhere there were fangirls screaming and trying to get as close as they can physically to Ji Yong.


Bom on the other hand, felt like she had no right and shouldn't intrude with his life anymore. After all, she didn't want to make and have scandalous stories saying that Ji Yong has a girlfriend who is a trainee from the same company. She couldn't risk ruining him, she cared for him too much. This was what he was waiting for to help his family out, and Bom knew that too well.


"Answer me..." he pleaded quietly. "Do I not give time to you enough?"


She stayed quiet.


"Do I not care for you enough?" He asked once again.


"That's not it," Bom whispered quietly feeling guilty that she made them come to this conversation, that she had been trying to avoid since Ji Yong debuted.


"Then what is it?" He stood up to sit next to her, and propped her chin up so she could look at him.


"I don't know.... I just feel like there's other better people now for you to be with than with me," her eyes were very sad now, Ji Yong's heart pained as he saw the sadness in her eyes.


"Never."


She tried to smile a little. She believed him, even when she said those words to him in the beginning she knew he wouldn't ever forget her. Her mind just told her that he should forget about her.


"No matter how many fangirls I'll end up having, a million, a billion... I know you will always be my number one fangirl," he winked at her and gave her a smile that made her heart melt.


"Yeah, and all those gazillion fangirls you have will want to kill while I'm sleeping!" the atmosphere was now changed into a happy and teasing one.


"I won't ever let them," he gave her a huge and tight hug to make her feel better.


After awhile of just talking Ji Yong said, "We should probably get something done, didn't Hyung-nim want you to make a video of you singing to release it before you debut next year?"


"Yeah, should we record in the recording room, or do it over here?" she inquired.


"I guess we can go to the recording room, it wouldn't really matter much either way," they made their way to the little room next door as Ji Yong brought with him his video camera that was sitting on one of the desk.


Bom stood in the middle of the room as Ji Yong stayed about 5 feet from her to get a better view for the camera.


"Oh I almost forget to play the music for the song, what are you going to sing?"


"'Never Let You Go'," she whispered quietly as if she was embarrassed to tell him.


"Okay, let me look for it real quickly," After a few moments Ji Yong finally got everything ready, song set up, and the camera too. He gave her a thumbs up and a smile as he started the music and pressed record on the camera.


Ji Yong didn't know why, but his heart beat started beating faster, his face was beginning to get hot. He looked at her through the camera, and once again blown away at how beautiful she looks. Believe it or not, this was the first time he will be hearing her sing just for him. She was always singing for a group of people and sometimes with a group of people, but never just for him.


"If I had one wish boy,
I'd wish you next to me
And it could be in Summer, Fall, or Spring boy
Cause you make my heart sing
I wanna give my heart, my soul, my love to you , ohh baby, yeah
Cause everyday I'm not with you, I'm missing you,
Like crazy"


He was mesmerized by her beauty, she looked even more stunning as she sang. Her voice was beautiful that gave him chills and shivers down his back, that made his hair go up. She was just simply perfect. Her voice was so unique that he had never heard of a more beautiful voice.


"I need for you to,
Love me (love me)
Hold me (hold me)
Touch me (touch me)
Down deep in my soul,
Never let it go,
Of the love we share, no one compares to you
I'll never let you go,
Cause I really love you so
ohh I,
I'll never let you go"


"That's a promise Park Bom," he quietly whispered, but not loud for her to hear him. He pressed the record button to stop recording. He couldn't breathe, he was just simply blown away. There were no words to describe how he felt right now.


Ji Yong looked at her and stared at her while there was a moment of silence. Bom was looking down feeling embarrassed that she sang this, especially to him. Those lyrics was so powerful, that it had a big after effect on both of them.


It felt like a secret message that Bom was trying to tell Ji Yong that she couldn't say in person. And Ji Yong understood. He knew that this song was for him.

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"Why did you break your promise, Park Bom?" He whispered to himself as he was sitting on the rooftop of the building just looking up at the night sky. He remembered at how beautiful she looked, how amazing her voice sounded, and how all together she had blown him away.


"I've kept my promise, how come you didn't keep yours?" he looked at the moon and the stars as if they were Bom, and somehow as he kept talking she would somehow hear him.


"I hope your dreams have come true, and that you are living on the moon and having such a good time," he chuckled a little. "While I'm here all alone without you."

Without him realizing it, his eyes were becoming misty. "I love you, wasn't that enough?"

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Author's Note: I used this YG clip of Park Bom in the story. When I played it a few weeks ago, I couldn't help but think that it really related to my fic! And no I don't own the lyrics! DISCLAIMER!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=soG-7QYBecM

-Bom actually sang it for her trainee years. "Never Let You Go"