[.Chapter XIII.]

Originally Published On: Nov 27, 2009

The Reason
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A/N: This chapter has two different flashbacks, it might be confusing, but I hope you can follow it! Thank you! Enjoy!




A lot of you guys are really getting confused with the different times, I've added something help you guys out! There are three different settings, two major ones of flashbacks, and one present. The two flashbacks is the time she is still in America when she was with Travis, and the other is in Korea when Travis finds her BEFORE she leaves everyone.


[ ★ ] I've placed a star on the flashbacks when she was in America.
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And the one without is the flashbacks when she is in Korea before she left.

★There was no doubt in her mind that she had deep feelings for Travis. She liked him and cared for him. She would have done a lot of things for him that she would not have done for a regular person she knew. Travis had a way with her like no other. He had made her feel special like no one ever did, he took care of her like no one ever tried, and most of all he loved her like no one ever showed before. At least that’s what she thought at that time. She was a child who had needed all of those, security, protection and love were all the things missing in her life, but once Travis had given her a taste of them, she couldn’t turn away but instead kept wanting even more.

Travis was her first official boyfriend and she didn’t have many expectations; so the first few months of their relationship she thought rather went well. She was happy, it was the first time a guy had ever paid attention to her like that, sure guys were infatuated over her, she’s had many guys confess their feeling for her, but she never fell for any of them. They were all the same to her, young teenage boys who could careless who she was but instead wanted her as a prize to show off to their other friends. It was a belief she had all throughout her high school years, maybe that’s why she was became so attracted to Travis from the start. He was older and mature, he didn’t play those ‘games, and instead he was very straight-forward from the beginning, and most of all she had received and felt the closest of feeling of love from him.

Did he love her? Yes, he did. But whether it was all completely love, was debatable.

Did she love him? At the time, she thought she knew what love was, but she later learned it wasn’t real love that she felt. She was blinded by the overwhelming feelings she felt for him, so blinded that she couldn’t see what was happening in front of her eyes. Despite of all the warnings and unasked advices from her friends and family, she still chose not to believe it.

As time flew by, Travis became very protective of Bom. Every little action she made was to be known to him, every person she saw must be told to him, anything she did must be noticed to him, and if not, it was a consequence that she or anyone close to her did not want to happen.

It only started out with the few calls when she wasn’t with him, then the few calls became into constant text messaging always declaring information of where she was at and who she was with. Then if she didn’t text him right away, she would find at least twenty missed calls from him with the twenty voice messages along with them. All of that grew little by little, that it was hard for her to notice the changes of it. But only Bom herself was the only one that was oblivious to the situation, her friends and family noticed, but Bom only denied it greatly.

“Don’t you see the way he is treating you?” her sister had asked her one day as they had a girl’s day out at the mall.

“What? He’s only being a good boyfriend,” Bom replied not looking at her sister Jessica.

“Good boyfriend?” her sister’s voice rose higher. “You’ve got to be kidding me!”

“No, I’m not kidding you. He is a good boyfriend.”

“Bom, I’m not going to act like it’s none of my business anymore,” she pulled Bom by the arm and lead her to the side where there were no people passing by. “You’re my baby-sister and I hate seeing you like this-“

“What are you talking about?” Bom asked her nervously.

Jessica roughly took a hold of Bom’s right arm and then before Bom could react, her sister forcefully pulled up the sleeves of her sweater, making Bom’s heart stop in fear of what her sister knew. “You think I don’t know?”

Bom couldn’t utter any words, she wanted to lie and deny it, but even that she couldn’t do.

“Don’t even make up any excuses. You’ll only look like a fool if you say you accidently tripped and somehow got this bruises on your arms,” Jessica gave her hard stare looking into her eyes. “The only reason why I haven’t said anything until now is because I thought you would have been smarter enough to realize your own situation. But I guess I was wrong.”

“It’s not as… bad as you think…” Bom looked down on the floor as she said those words to her sister.

“Of course it’s not as bad,” her sister replied sarcastically. “You’re right, it’s way worse, considering it’s him you’re with.”

“I’m really okay,” Bom looked at her sister finally, but was she really okay?

“Stop lying Bom. This is my fault, I shouldn’t have taken you to that party, and I’m going to fix this,” Bom’s eyes were scared as she continued to look into her sister’s determined face. Her sister will definitely do what she wanted to do, once her sister puts her mind on something, there was no stopping her. “You can’t see him anymore.”

“But,” she paused for a quick second, “I love him.” But even then, as those words came out of her mouth, it didn’t sound as right as she thought it in her mind.

Did she really love him?

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“I love you,” she kissed him farewell outside his apartment door with his huge luggage on one hand and the other behind her back.

“I love you too, baby,” he smiled down at her happy to have her in his arms for a last second, but devastated of leaving her for a week. “Don’t do anything that you know I won’t approve.” He kissed her forehead as they both closed their eyes.

“I’m always a good girl,” she playfully smiled at him. “You on the other hand mister, better not be swooned by other girls while you’re away.”

“Wow, my girlfriend is jealous?” he looked at her mesmerized. “You know no one can take my heart away from you.”

“Oh God! Cut out all the mushy stuff now will ya?” Seung Ri walked out of their apartment just hearing what his Hyung said. He turned to Bom, “Noona, you’re pretty amazing for turning Hyung like this.” Seung Ri walked off, leaving an annoyed Ji Yong and a laughing Bom behind.

“Ji Yong! We got to go! Hurry up with the sweet good-bye already!” a shout that seemed to be from Young Bae came from the other end of the hallway.

Ji Yong turned his face to Bom’s, let go of the handle of the luggage, and took both of his hands placed them gently on the sides of her face. “Park Bom Lee, I love you. I’ll miss you, and I’ll call you every night and every morning, and text you every second I can get, alright?”

She nodded her head smiling as her heart seemed to flutter away into the air as he gave her a last lingering kiss onto her lips.

“Alright, I’ll see you next week, and I’ll call you when I get to Japan!” he said as he walked off still looking at her.

“I love you!” she shouted at him as he walked further and further down the hall until she finally couldn’t see him.

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★It was 11 o’clock at night and she was barely coming home from one of her girlfriend’s house. She pulled her car on the driveway outside their new house, turned off the car and got out. It’s been a long day of partying and fun, and she was ready to get some sleep.

As she made her way to her doorstep, she saw him sitting on the edge of the step of the sidewalk.

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Her phone vibrated through her pocket, and she knew it was from hi. She eagerly opened her phone and smiled at the message he sent her.

“Hey my butterfly,
we just finished the fan meeting,
and when on our way back to the apartment.

How did the recording go? ^__^

I know it was good, I can’t wait to hear it!

I love you”

She had just finished recording for her single “You and I” and her voice is all worn out. In a few days her song will be released and in a week the music video which they have currently been working on, will also be released by then.

“It was great!
I’ll make sure you’ll be the first one to hear it!
Teddy oppa is fixing things up, and I’ll make sure
he sends it to you before anyone else could hear the song!

I’ll call you when I get home, my love”
She placed her phone back in her pocket and got her purse and turned to look at Teddy listening to the recorded song.

“How did I do?” she asked him nervously.

“Bom, it was the best!” he got up excitedly and gave her a friendly big hug. “And I know what you’re about to ask me, I’ll make sure to download it into a CD by tonight and then you can send it to Ji Yong,” he smiled at her.

“Thanks,” she grinned back happily. “I’m on my way back to the apartment, is there anything else I need to do before I go?”

“Hmm… no, I think we’re done!” he clasped his hand together as a little celebration of what they accomplished. “I’ll go walk you, since I’m about to leave too anyway.” He turned everything off and picked up everything he needed as she waited for him.

They walked out of the recording room together talking about how Bom’s single will be a hit. “I already know it will top the charts, Bom!” Teddy was so excited about Bom’s song, and in fact he had produced it too.

“I really do hope so, I’m still nervous since this has been such a big dream for me, and it is finally happening!” butterflies in her stomach started fluttering.

“Don’t be nervous! Your voice is one of a kind, people are going to fall in love with it,” Teddy reassured her. She gave him a little smile in thanks of such great encouragement towards her career. They made it on the first floor of the building as they were close by to the exit door.

Then she stopped her tracks. Her heart beat stopped. He was there.

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★She did not know what to do next. Should she say something first? Should she go up to him? Or should she ignore him as if he wasn’t there?

What she ended up doing was neither of those; instead she continued to stare at him with focused and big eyes, like a cornered cat.

She didn’t know what he would do. She only knew of what he was capable of doing, and she hoped that he wouldn’t any of them.

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Teddy waited for a reply from Bom, but when he didn’t hear a response after a long pause, he stopped to look beside him to find that she was a few steps back behind him. He became worried, it looked like she was sick.

“Bom?” he called out her name as he went back to where she was.

She was pale as if she had seen a ghost. He touched her shoulders to try to get her attention, but only found her trembling body. He noticed she was breathing faster and harder, but what caught her attention were her eyes. Her eyes were huge; she seemed to be staring at something, or at someone. He turned his head behind him to see who or what she was looking at, and he found a tall and built man with a cap on staring straight at Bom with a smile on his face.

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★Her sister had kept her words. She separated Bom and Travis with the snap of her fingers, and just like that she hadn’t seen him in month. Until now.

Jessica hadn’t really officially broken the couple up, she had only vanished Bom from his life, disappearing through thin air. Only God would know what he would’ve done to Jessica and Bom if she had confronted him that she didn’t want shim seeing her sister. So instead, she had Bom change her number, have them all move to a different apartment and had Bom change to the next closest high school nearby.

Her heart was pounding hard against her chest that she could almost feel the pain in her heart, she felt like she couldn’t grasp any oxygen in the air as she found herself feeling harder and harder to breath. Her legs were shaking, like she could fall and melt down any second, she needed to hang on to something, needed something to support her before she falls down in front of his presence, physically and emotionally.

She could see his tall frame get up and move in front of her making his way towards her slowly like a lion catching his prey.

She had not gone against her sister’s wishes, in fact she had let her control everything and do what she had wanted to do. Bom didn’t encourage her nor did she resist. She was confused, and she was starting to believe what her sister was telling her. That he was no good for her. She didn’t want to make excuses for him anymore.

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“Hey, are you okay?” Teddy was now shaking her, until finally some few attempts, he managed to get her back to reality.

She looked back at Teddy for a second, then she shook her head as if to trying to get her normal state of mind back. “Yeah, sorry, let’s keep going.”

Then just like that Bom continued to walk and walked through the exit without giving the man another last glance. Teddy was confused and most of all worried. He had never seen Bom look so scared. Who was that man? Did she know him? Or could she have mistaken him for someone else? Maybe.

Teddy looked backed at the man for one last look, but he found no trace of him. He shook his head. No, the man had been looking at Bom back and was smiling at her that gave him the creeps.

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★He was only a few steps away from her now, her head was pounding, and she couldn’t focus her thoughts, she didn’t know how to react.

“My little darling,” she heard him breathe out lowly as they were merely inches apart. She wanted to respond to him, say something, but it seems like her body would not cooperate with what her brain wanted.

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She was finally in the YG apartment building. Teddy and her went to go get , went to do some errands and talked more about her new upcoming and first single that would blow the minds of the netizens. Throughout the whole time Bom wasn’t fully mentally paying attention at what was going on when conversing with Teddy. The only thing she could think about was who she had encountered today.

It was now around 7:00 at night and she was tired, she needed to get some rest and just get her mind off of everything. She waited until her driver had left to go inside the building, but as she was making her way inside, she felt a cold touch on her arm that she knew all too-well at who it belonged to.

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★“You don’t even have anything to say to me?” he placed his face so close to hers and breathed in, as she could clearly smell the scent of his breath from the cigarettes. She was feeling light-headed, from the smell of the smoke, but the way he placed his hand firmly on her lower back and the other on the side of her neck as he stroked it ever so slowly that gave her shivers down her spine.

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Every touch from him was like a piercing knife being cutting inside of her, it was a feeling she didn’t want to feel. They stared at each other for a long moment.

But two different feelings were present at that moment. One was full of fear, the other full of desire and want.

She didn’t want him to speak, she didn’t want to be afraid of him anymore, she wanted all of that to change and the only way to do that was to prove to him that he had no affect on her anymore.

“I’ve got nothing to do with you,” she said to him firmly looking into his piercing dark eyes as she tried to block the fear from her own brown eyes. “Leave me alone.”

“But I can’t do that my little darling,” he whispered with smiling eyes. “Let’s talk for awhile, shall we.” It was rather a demand instead of a question.

“No.” she replied. “We have been done talking since a long time ago.”

“It was unfinished,” he said as he started to stroke her arm lightly.

“I have nothing to say,” she let her arm free of his hold. “Everything I’ve said before is all that I ever need to say to you.”

“You love him.” He whispered close to her ear as they stayed in the same position as before. “Don’t you?”

How did he know about them? Her heart was pounding against her chest, almost deafening in her ears, she was way too scared of what he knew about her private life. “I have nothing to say to you about my life.”

“Oh, but I think you do,” the corners of his lips began to lift up into a smile. “That is, if you don’t want him to get hurt.”

“Don’t you dare!” Her eyes grew wide as she looked at him intently with anger inside of her. “Leave him out of this!”

“Shall we talk then?” he smiled down at her seeing her look down at her phone that seemed to be getting a call from someone. She turned her phone off and placed it back in her purse as he knew he would be getting what he wanted today.

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★She took a deep breath as she tried to gasp for air, and a few seconds later she managed to get words out of her mouth. “Travis, I can’t be with you.”

He stopped stroking her neck as the strokes turned into a death grip. “What the hell did you just say?”

“..I-I ca-an’t be wi-ith you,” she tried to choke out the words as he still had her neck firmly around his hand.

“Why? Because you’re going to fuckin’ listen to your stupid sister?” he said lowly, but she could clearly his anger rising. She continued to stare at him, and then slowly nodded her head.

“Let g-go o-of me,” she declared to him. She placed both hands on the hand that was strongly placed on her neck, as she tried to make it leave her. She was now trying really hard to gasp for air.

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She had let him have his way and he insisted that they go to his apartment to talk. Of course Bom hesitated, she declined his proposal but a cornered cat was cornered, it would not get its way.

She was sitting uncomfortably on his couch as he made his way in the kitchen to get them something to drink. Nothing felt right. Being in his presence, in his house, everything felt weird. She felt unsafe.

She watched his every move, cautious of everything around her as she sat on that sofa. He came back with two cups of coffee, and a plate of bread with him.

“I still very much remember how much you loved bread,” he said as if he was trying to remember the old time with her.

“Thanks,” she always tried to keep her answers short, she didn’t want him to know anything, she just wanted to get over talking with him, and hopefully she will never see him again.

“Jenny… or should I call you Bom now?” he sat close beside her, way too close.

“Either one is fine,” he was about to respond, but Bom quickly cut him off. “I don’t have much time, please get to the point.”

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★“I fuckin’ love you, Jenny,” he said to her louder in the quiet night as he pushed her down on the cold grass floor. She fell down hard on the ground, the pain on her bottom as she hit the hard rocky floor. “I thought you felt the same?!”

She took a deep breath trying to calm herself the best she could, although it didn’t work, she was scared, she was afraid of what he’ll do to her. “You don’t love me, Travis,” she softly let out to him.

Then she saw his eyes seem to glimmer with even a greater amount of anger as the moonlight shone on his hard face. “I don’t love you?” he spoke softly, which always scared her even more.

“The hell do you think, trying to tell me what I feel?” he questioned her as he lowered himself so he could be face to face with Bom. “You’re all I fuckin’ think about, Jenny.”

She scooted herself back away from him, “That’s not always love.”

“Then what do you fuckin’ call that?”

“Obsession.”

They stared at each other in the dark and scary night. The moon so full and big that always had the people of the ancient times believing that something bad was going to happen.

“Who says love and obsession can’t be mixed together?” he dangerously asked her.

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“Alright, if that’s how you want it,” he straightened himself up and gave her a full long look. “We both know why I’m here.”

She stopped moving, there was something the way he said it like he knew he was going to do everything in his willpower to keep trying to get what he wanted. And she knew she couldn’t let him have it.

“I came to get you back.”

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★“Travis, you don’t love me,” she repeated once again, hoping that he would somehow understand if she kept repeating it to him.

“Oh, but, my little darling,” he said quietly as he leaned in closer to her and touching her chin with his index finger making her look closely into his deep dark eyes, “I do.”

“I-“ she stopped. “Don’t love you.”

The time and night seemed to have stopped around them. It seemed like no one existed in that dark night but the two of them. If she had ever been so scared in her life, that night would be one of them.

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“Travis,” she spoke out his name, “you can’t ever get me back.”

He was silent for once.

“I love him.”

His eyes seemed to get darker, if Bom had looked down at his hands where he was holding his cup of coffee she could’ve have noticed the tight grip he had on the cup that almost seemed like it was going to break any second.

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★His grip on her arm that she didn’t seem to notice until now was hurting her as she grimaced by the hard and death grip on her arm. It would add on to the other bruises that she already once possessed because of him.

What came next blew her hard, everything seemed to go in fast motion as she saw him lift his right arm as it came in contact onto her left cheek, leaving a heavy hurtful sting on her cheek. She didn’t move. She couldn’t move. She was frozen in the position he brought her upon, with her face lowered down, unknown tears seemed to trickle down her face, as she slowly and quietly moved her hand to touch her face.

She didn’t know what to feel, and the feelings she did feel were all unknown to her, they were mixed of surprise, anger, sadness and fear. Surprise that he was able to place his hand on her face and slap her, even though he’s hurt her before; he has never laid a finger to hurt her on her face. Anger that was overwhelming inside her thinking of how he could go against about the so-called “love” he confessed awhile ago. The sadness that she feels of the thought that the man she once cared for actually turned out to be like the brutal man in front of her. The fear of thinking of what else he was actually capable of doing to her.

She slowly lifted her crying face to meet his, she could tell that his eyes were filled of regret, but yet he made no move to apologize or take care of her.

“And you said you fuckin’ love me,” she whispered as she stared into his eyes. “If this is what you called love…”

“Jenny…” he said to her as he made a gesture to wrap his arms around her still full of regret, but she stopped him immediately.

“…then I don’t want to be loved by you,” she finished. As she got up to move from her place and move away from her.

“Don’t do this to me,” she heard him from behind as she started walking towards her doorstep away from him.

She didn’t respond.

“If you won’t let me love you,” she faintly heard him say, “then I won’t ever let anyone else love you either.” Then she suddenly felt a strong grasp onto her wrist as she was stopped from moving any further. She tried to free herself away, but it was impossible with the strength that he possessed.

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“Is love enough to keep you guys together?” he sounded dangerous. Just one look at him she knew the Travis she had once saw and cared for had already disappeared from her that night. This man was someone else.

“Love is the only thing we need,” she responded.

“Even if your whole love is a secret? Even if you know the rest of the world is against it? Even if you know that your whole career will be affected? Even if your own best friend was in love with him?”

She swallowed hard. Hearing what he said was different from the way her head had told her those exact same questions. Wasn’t she okay with all those problems now? Wasn’t it okay that they kept their relationship hidden, and still be together even if they both know that their career will be ruined once word goes out? And wasn’t Chae Rin okay would the two of them being together now? Or was Travis right, was it not okay?

“What if…” he paused, his smile bigger and more evil than ever. “What if, I told the whole world that you and Mr. Kwon love each other very much?”

Her throat became dry; she couldn’t utter a single sound. She almost couldn’t breathe, she was getting hot as little moist started to form on top of her temples. She reached out for the cup on the table, and slowly as she trembled placed the cup on her lips and sipped it tasting the coffee in her mouth.

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★“Travis, let me go!” he didn’t listen, but instead he dragged him towards the street towards his car.

“I can’t ever let you go, Jenny,” she heard him say firmly but quietly, as if she was the only person that was meant to hear that.

“Travis, you’re hurting me!” his hold on her was immensely hard and strong, his grip was crushing her wrist that she couldn’t ever feel the blood flowing there anymore. She tried to pull away by using her other hand to untangle his grasp, and by putting weight onto her body so he wouldn’t move her. But it was all useless.

She couldn’t help it anymore, she began to shriek and scream now. He was now in a state where she couldn’t control him, she was now unable to reach to his normal state of mind. This man in front of her was someone she didn’t know. He was completely different to the man she knew.

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She got up after a few moments, making sure that she had the energy to get up, she felt like her soul had been taken out of her. “I’m going to leave.” But a hand grabbed her immediately as she looked down to see him looking at her.

“I don’t think that’s a wise idea, Bom,” he had used her Korean name, and she didn’t like it one tad bit. She felt the chills go through her spine.

She couldn’t even respond. She suddenly felt light-headed, like she was going to faint any second. Her vision blurred, and she didn’t even notice that she fell back down on the couch as the last words she heard were, “you know how dangerous I can be,” before she blacked out.

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★The lights of the other houses nearby turned on by the commotion outside of their house. Bom’s sister and mother were both awakened by the loud shriek and noise that came from the outside, and they knew all too well that the voice belonged to Bom.

Not a second longer, both the mom and the sister was outside the door with a phone in their hand seeing Bom being dragged away by that scary man.

“Let go of my sister you b*astard!” Jessica was now next to them on the street trying to pull Travis’s hand away from her sister the best she could. But even still, she didn’t make a difference. No matter how much she tried, no matter how hard she dug her nails deep into his skin, kicked him, punched him, even with the two sisters doing it, it was no use for he was almost to his car.

Jessica then bit him, hard, on his arm. That somehow got his attention as he stopped and then gave her a death-look. Without letting go of Bom, he pulled closer into Jessica and used his other free hand and placed it behind her head as he took a handful of hair into his hand and pulled it. Hard.

She grunted as Bom gasped that he touched her sister. “Travis, stop it. Don’t hurt her.” Bom cried out loud.

He didn’t listen as he pulled her hair even harder from behind, then suddenly he used all his forced and pushed her onto the ground making her fall hard on her knees.

“Jessica!” Bom screamed, but her sister quickly got up not showing any signs of pain even if she did feel a great amount of it. She continued punching and trying to hurt Travis, Bom not knowing what to do, all she could do was be hysteric as she finally continued to cry.

Bom cried as her sister continued to get him away. Bom cried as Travis continued to hurt her sister, she cried as he slapped Jessica, as he cursed her, as he choked her and Bom continued to cry until she couldn’t take it anymore, and the next thing she knew everything turned black.

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★Her eyes felt heavy, hell her whole body felt heavy. She didn’t feel good physically or mentally. She tried opening them slowly, as she suddenly saw her surroundings that she was in a hospital. Both her sister and mother right next to her watching her intently.

“Bommie!” Jessica cried out as she gave her sister a hug.

“Why am I here?” she saw that she was the one to be in the hospital bed, with the hospital gown, and obviously she was the patient here.

“You were having an anxiety attack, baby girl,” her mother said softly with such sadness as she also went over to Bom and gave her a caring hug.

Images from last night were starting to form in her head, slowly and fast, everything was coming back to her senses. And the same feelings were rising up inside her once again.

“It’s fortunate that when Mom called the cops they came as soon as they can,” her sister informed her. “Or else who knew what that fuckin’ b*astard would have done.” Her mother continued to wrap her arms on Bom as she soothed her.

She could never forget what happened last night, what he had done, to her and her sister. He became a different person once she told him that she did not love him. He became like a werewolf unleashed in a full moon, except in this case she didn’t know whether he was able to turn himself back to his normal self. Or was that even his normal self?

For all she knew, all of that image from before could have been fake and the scary man she saw yesterday was the real one.

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He was more than worried by now. Why was she not calling him back yet? And why had she not picked up his call earlier? But most of all, why was her phone turned off?

He dialed her number for the thousandth time as he placed the phone on his ear and only to hear her voicemail once again. It was still off.

It was past 10:00 PM and it’s been more than three hours since she said she will call him. He contacted the other girls, but all of them said that they weren’t home to see her yet and that her phone was also off. The only other person she could be was Teddy, who was working with her on her upcoming single, but even he had responded that her phone was off, but the last time he saw her was after 6:00 PM.

Teddy had said that she was really tired, and that maybe her phone died and forgot to charge it because she might have gone to sleep. That sounded right to Ji Yong, but Bom always called him before going to bed.

Where was she?

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★“What happened… to… him,” she breathed out feeling the same fear from the night before as she closed her eyes trying to block the memory that was running through her head.

“Last thing I know was that the cops took him to jail, and I haven’t heard a thing yet,” her sister told her compassionately.

Bom nodded her slowly.

Her mother continued to caress her head; she had always been horrible at playing the role of the mother in her family. Bom never felt like she truly had a mother-figure in her family, but instead It was always her older sister who somewhat took the role instead. Nevertheless though, Bom was thankful that she was at her side at that moment, it made her feel a little bit more secure knowing that her family was beside her.

“You’ll never have to see him again,” her mother now voiced out. She looked at her confused. How would that be possible?

“You’re going to Korea,” Jessica answered her. “You can finally pursue your dreams of being a singer.”

Bom’s heart raced. This was not how she imagined running after her dream. She didn’t want to try catching her dream of being a singer when she was being chased by a man.

All she could hear through her head was, “If you won’t let me love you, then I won’t ever let anyone else love you either.” She shivered upon hearing that voice inside her head.

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Her head was throbbing, her body was sore, her eyes were heavy. She couldn’t open them, she felt like she could stay just laying there forever without having to do anything.

She decided to ignore what she wanted, and she knew she had to get up because she had to practice with Teddy today again. She slowly opened her eyes, wincing as her body seemed to ache even more. She didn’t know why it would, she tried to remember what she did yesterday.

She remembered finishing recording “You and I” with Teddy, and then she quickly remembered like a shot in the head, that Travis met with her last night. Her eyes widened as she now suddenly remembered of the last thing that she saw last night. She was about to leave when suddenly she felt like she was going to collapse. Then after that everything was black.

She looked around her in panic, the room she was in was unfamiliar. The bed she was on, everything around her was not hers, and nor has she seen them before. Was she still in his apartment?

She looked beside him to find no one beside her, oh thank God.

Then she turned her head by the night stand next to her to see a little note on it, only written by him. She took the piece of paper into her hands and read it.

“I’ll be home at 4’oclock today. You can leave by then or wait for me, but either way I’ll be seeing you later, my little darling.”

She abruptly sat up from the bed hoping to quickly leave this hell hole as she realized something that almost killed her right there. She couldn’t breathe. Her heart bit quickened. She panted rapidly. Her body was stripped down from head to toe.

Her eyes began to moisten as she knew it would quickly turn into a river of tears. What had he done to her? The thin white blanket from the bed was the only thing covering her naked body.

She finished reading the note, “I told you, I won’t let anyone else love you either.”

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It was 2:15 AM, and today was the day she would leave everything behind. She had been planning this for weeks, and finally she would disappear from everyone else’s lives.

She quietly got up from her bed, she hadn’t even gotten a wink of sleep, but instead pretended to be asleep as she listened to the quiet night and the other girls sleeping peacefully in their beds. She already could feel the tears that were threatening to roll down from her eyes, she tried to hold it in as much as she could, but it was useless. Her emotions were stronger than her, she couldn’t be calm when she knew that after today she wouldn’t be seeing them anymore but at the sight of some TV screens, or big posters on the sidewalks. Aside from that, all connections would be cut-off.

“Ji Yong-ah,” she whispered his name as she went to the living room and opened the door to the closet that none of the other girls had ever bothered to looked inside. “I’m so sorry.”

Tears rolled down her face like the drizzles of rain outside a dark blue sky. She took out the suitcase that she hid since last night, and the suitcase where all the belongings she would be bringing with her was in.

She couldn’t do this, she possible couldn’t.

Her whole body was trembling as if it were telling her that this was not what she should be doing. There had to be some other way to solve this problem. But it was too late, it had already been chosen for her.

She took out her phone and typed something in it one last time before going back to her bedroom and placing it on her night table. “I love you,” she whispered quietly as a tear drop fell on the phone.

She quietly moved out of the room before looking at her sisters and members one last time. She left the apartment without locking the door, and walking down the stairs through the exit door of the building until she reached the outside.

She waited outside with her green hoodie on her trying to keep her warm but not succeeding. The cold air and the light rain of the weather had been too strong to keep her warm, but the cold in her heart was probably the reason why she had been so cold.

“My little darling,” a call from beside her as she looked up to see his dark eyes smiling at her. “Are you ready?”

She didn’t respond but instead walked towards the car that would take both of them away together.

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Ji Yong went back to his apartment. He then felt a vibrating motion in his right pocket coming from his phone. He picked it up to see the president was calling him.

"Yeoboseyo?" he answered.

"Ji Yong-ah," his president responded with a quick voice. "Get ready and pack, you and the guys are going to Jukdo to film. Hurry and be ready soon. I've already told the others."

The phone was disconnected before he could respond. Jukdo? He's never been there. And filming? Great, he didn't feel like doing anything, but yet here he was being dragged to go somewhere he's never been before, and doing something he that didn't know anything about.

"The hell, it better be worth it," he was really tired. After bumping into Chae Rin he wanted nothing more than just to lay on his bed and sleep.

[ END OF PART I ]

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Author's Note: [From my A/N in YGLadies] FINALLY! After a long time of no update, I'm finally back with chapter 13 and a very long one at that! I'm really sorry this took awhile! As a lot of you guys know, from G-BOM thread and also from my signature, that I have been very busy, and getting the time to write this fic was very rare. But finally after a long process and some days with a few extra time I've been able to finish this chapter! It took me such a long time because of little time, but also cause it was long! I wrote a total of about 17 pages and about 7,000 words! The longest paper I've ever written thus far in my entire life! I guess I better get used to it if I'm going to be writing a book someday, right? Hehehe!

Another thing why it took me so long was I didn't know how to end the chapter, I had some problems of another thing that I couldn't decide on about the story, but finally I made up my mind, and I'm not letting you know what that one problem I had was, because it is part of the story. But the other problem was whether to end the this chapter as the ending of Part I of the story. And finally, I decided to, as some if you guys who have checked my story in the last few days and saw my author's note, I told you guys that I would be ending the Part I here. And of course there would be a Part II! I just decided to officially cut the story with the past and the present. I think that's pretty self-explanatory, eventhough I'm not all completely done with the flashbacks, I could say I'm pretty much quiet almost there! So you will be getting all presents soon!

ABOUT THE CHAPTER! Do you guys understand what happened? The reason why she left, was sort of unveiled here! but not completely!